Monday, July 8, 2013

I'm Missing...


Oh hey guys.

Long time no talk. And I MISS IT!

It's about to get dramatic over here. Just get ready...

Having a full time job is ruining my life!!! 

Ok, not really.
BUT, it sure is making my life difficult and I'm not sure I am loving it. At all.

I'm missing:

Spending time with Garrett. Our schedules are so opposite it's not even funny. For instance, I am off today (Monday) and tomorrow. He's working. He's off Saturday and Sunday, I'm working those two days. Really? I'm not one of those "distance makes the heart grow fonder" kind of gals. Distance makes my heart grow sad and lonely. I need time with my husband people!

Talking to my family. It seems like every time my mom/dad/sister texts or calls me I am at work. By the time I am off work it is past 1am in Texas so they are sleeping. I'm used to talking to my sister on the daily. We already don't see each other often and this missing each other on the phone all the time is getting old!

Blogging. I love to write blog posts and read blogs. I haven't blogged in two weeks, except right now obviously. I miss it, and you guys! However, when I am done with work for the day, the last thing I want to do is sit down and blog. Blogging is a creative and social outlet for me which is something I definitely need. Also, it saves memories.

Having fun. Another reason I have not been blogging is because we have been doing literally nothing except working. Garrett and I are never off on the same days except for one weekend a month. That makes it difficult to do fun things together. I don't even have any pictures to share!

Having a clean apartment. Before I worked full time I had time to do the dishes, laundry, and change the cat litter on a regular basis. Now on the days that I am off I want to do nothing more than be lazy. Spend all day cleaning on my day off? No thanks!

Not being cussed and yelled at. Don't get me wrong, with my job it is just expected to happen on a regular basis. Staff get so much disrespect in this position. Just yesterday I was called a "white bitch" as well as told to "shut the f*ck up". Can you believe that coming from a 16 year old? I guess when you are raised by trash that's what happens. Still, it doesn't make it easy to be talked to that way.

So, you get the point. How do you people that work full time still have lives? I guess it doesn't help that I am on a rotating schedule and work weekends. Regardless, working my life away is not what I want or what makes me happy. It is the complete opposite. I hate it. I don't see how people do it without getting depressed. It literally encompasses everything and takes so much time away from the important things in life.

I'll take back the things that I am missing over an extra paycheck any day. 


15 comments:

  1. Keep your head up girl and keep praying. Find contentment in doing what God has planned for you to do, and if your aren't happy, maybe He has better plans for you. Seek His guidance with what you should be doing. Sometimes a "job" that pays the bills is just that a "job."

    I can't think of one time in the last 3 years that I feel like I'm just going to a job everyday. I'm lucky if I get to work 40 hours a week. My day consists of waking up before dawn, checking e-mails I received over night, being at work between 6:30 - 7:00 and working till after 5. Getting home, running, cleaning the house, fixing dinner, sitting down to do my devotional and then checking the e-mails I received after I left my office and hopefully squeezing in a blog. I find so much satisfaction from doing my "job" that answering e-mails and phone calls 18 out of 24 hours a day is not a burden. On the weekends, I get a little bit of a break and only answer e-mails twice a day (morning and night). However, that is not the life for everyone - it is just a life that suits me and where I am in life right now. Once I get married and have children, all of this will be a distant memory, I am sure. But for now, I just find contentment in having a career. Someday when I'm old and gray, I'll be able to say I had a career once, then I got married and had children and devoted my life to that (hopefully, if that's what God chooses for me). Maybe I'll have the best of both worlds.

    Enjoy the time you are getting to work, make goals for yourself with your job, strive to achieve them, feel like you are working towards something. Keep God at the center, and everything else will fall into place.

    You have to find what fulfills you in life and seek God's guidance in that daily. Sometimes he doesn't change our circumstances because he is trying to change our heart.

    Find your life's passion...and pursue that with a vengeance.

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  2. I've been doing it FOREVER so I honestly don't know any different. I started right out of college and that's just the way it was. I worked part time for 1 1/2 years a while back and it was really great. I had time for chores, errands and everything else. I totally appreciated that time but I knew it was temporary. Once you realize that there really is no time and just accept it then you just go on from there learning to juggle everything. Learning that there are only 4 hours per night or less on weekdays and only 2 days out of the week that are really yours and that it has to be enough for everything you need to do. I've never experienced opposing schedules with Mj. That's gotta just make things rougher. Hang in there! Hopefully you will get more used to it. Not that you really want to but ya know.

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  3. Although my job is a breeze in comparison to yours, I hear you 100%. Especially on the clean apartment! It's so hard to find the time! When you're finally off work, you just want to RELAX. Not clean! But it's all worth it to be able to pay bills and all that fun stuff.

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  4. I hope it either starts to be better or... that you find something else to do that fulfills your other life needs, too. I stand by the belief that no paycheck is worth being miserable, and that there is always another option. That being said.. I am a total artist weirdo who has been acting nearly her whole life so I know sometimes it sounds like a crazy idea. But I believe it! Keep seeking, sending patience!

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  5. Oh Whitney I have missed you! I was wondering where you had gone! I think that the hardest thing is to not have a good schedule. I can be SUPER busy but cram in about 10 more things if I sit down, prioritize and make a schedule. I'm a creature of habit and if I can get into a routine my life is much better! It doesn't sound like you have been able to form a routine because your days are always different--and that is HARD!! Try to attack your week and break it up into a routine and maybe that will help! Now, I would NOT be able to deal with not seeing the hubs--that is NO fun at all! No advice there chica! Love you and miss you! Email me if you want to vent!!

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  6. :(

    I'm sorry that the transition has been difficult but most transitions are.

    I've had a full time job for such a long time that I don't remember a time I didn't. I think if I were to change to a part time job I wouldn't know what to do with myself. I'm not exactly sure how I get the things I want done, done. I just do.

    During the week, I clean up 15-25 minutes a day that way on the weekend I'm not spending all my time cleaning. I try to write a blog now once every other day which leaves me with a lot more time to read my friends blogs, etc.

    Don't be so hard on yourself though. This is all new. Once you get the hang of your new schedule you'll wonder how it all wasn't second nature at first. Trust me, you'll be fine before you know it :)

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  7. P.S. I missed you while you were gone though!

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  8. I am sorry people are so mean to you at work, that is awful! I hope things slow down for you soon enough (if that's what you want;-))

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  9. I'm sorry you're struggling with this! I am so thankful that I have access to blogs while I'm working - otherwise, I wouldn't have time to read blogs at all!!! When I was only working 3 days a week our house was so tidy and now that I work full time it's always a mess... Except a day here or there when we buckle down and clean. Hope you find your rhythm soon! I've missed you!!!

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  10. whitney, i'm so so sorry to hear how crazy things have been. and i'm very sorry to hear how rude, and just downright mean the people were to you at work...you don't deserve that. i'm sorry your and garrett's schedules are so different lately. you will be in my thoughts and prayers. i hope that things ease up and give you more time to relax and spend time with your hubby.
    sending love and hugs. i'll be thinking about you. <3<3<3
    maria

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  11. I am so sad to read that a 16 year old talked to you like that.
    This world's going to poo with a quickness :/

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  12. Precioso sitio, con tu permiso me quedo para seguirte!
    Abrazos desde Uruguay!
    http://perfumederosas-cristina.blogspot.com/

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  13. we miss you too! sorry you were called those nasty names! where do you work at now? keep your faith and know at least you get to go home at the end of the day!

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  14. Aww I've missed you so much! I'm sorry that you're having a hard time adjusting and that you have to deal with un-fun situations! Just hang in there, I'm sure you'll catch your stride soon. So glad to see that despite it being hectic, you are okay. I was getting a little worried!!

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  15. I've worked most of my adult life and am now at a point (at 35) where I just want to give it all up and concentrate on my creative passions - like dedicating time to blogging and finishing those 4 novels I can never seem to finish. This is my first time here and I love your blog already. Just followed you. Please follow me back:-)

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