I feel like I have been MIA around here for the past couple of weeks. I have had absolutely no motivation to blog, or even catch up on the blogs I read daily. I have no idea why. I go through spurts where I'm like "must read every single blog! Must write atleast 5 days a week!" and then I have weeks where I'm like " I don't give a rat's ass about blogging or reading blogs" and that has been this last couple of weeks.
I hate feeling guilty for not blogging or for not checking Twitter and giving shout outs to my sponsors. I am so thankful for those people who choose to advertise on my page and I never want them to forget that. However, I also don't want to feel pressure to come up with a post when I feel like I'd rather do almost anything else. I love blogging, but when it starts feeling like a job, it's not as fun. That's not what blogging is about for me.
I started this blog for Garrett and I, and for our friends and families. Along the way I have gained more followers, began advertising on other's blogs as well as having people advertise on mine. Quite frankly, I'm a little over it. I'm over the giveaway's and the whole competition of who has the most followers.
For me, blogging is a creative outlet as well as an online memory book. It's something I do to preserve memories, pictures, and moments that Garrett and I have. Sometimes I feel like it has gotten away from that and has turned into a silly blog world competition to see how many new followers I can get and how many giveaways I can participate in. I don't want blogging to turn into something negative for me. I want to have the same excitement about it that I did when I first started. When I had like 5 followers and didn't care.
Blogging is a funny thing. You want to have more followers so that you can share your life with more people as well as learn about theirs, but at the same time more followers brings about new things such as advertising. I guess it doesn't have to. It is not mandatory that I advertise or swap buttons. I'm not even sure that I plan on stopping advertising or having people advertise with me. I just know that I want things to change around here. I don't want my blog to be a business that I stress out over.
So, what do I plan to change? Not much.
In fact, the only thing I want to change is the feeling of guilt I get when I go for 3 days without so much as a peep in the blog world. I want to come and go as I please, posting when I want to and commenting when I want to. I still want to advertise and accept advertising, I just don't want to feel like I have to post 5 days a week or I am letting people down. I realize that this may mean that no one will want to advertise with me, and I am ok with that. I didn't start this blog to earn money. If people do choose to advertise with me still, I will be very thankful. I will still do everything that I say I will, I just may not post 5 days a week every week. I will post when I feel like I have something relevant and fun to talk about.
So, there ya go. No big changes are coming up, I just wanted to let you in on how I have been feeling lately. Also, I was wondering if you had any advice? Do you ever feel pressure to come up with a post just to please your readers or out of fear of losing readers? How do you deal with it?
Ps. This post started out on a whoooole different topic and somehow ended up on this one. Funny how that happens sometimes!
I'm headed to Austin, TX on Sunday and couldn't be more excited!